I've never done anything like a blog before. Too nervous I suppose. Although cloaking my true identity through a blog helps a lot. For the past several years I've been working towards confidence. Don't we all need some? Working is easy for me it always has. I just need something to work towards to. That happens to be my fatal flaw. A lack of confidence=A lack of knowing what one is to do=A lack of person. At least it seems like it adds up to that.
Last year during lunchtime several of my weirdo friends and I would lock ourselves up in a practice room. (Practice room in the orchestra room.) So as to shield ourselves from the world and all in it. Amongst ourselves we would throw constant pity parties and many tears were shed. Thus the depression room was born! Perhaps this can be a section in my blog the "depression room". Although isn't life kind of already depressing???
I guess since I made this blog as an outlet I suppose I should begin with an honest alibi of my life. A large part of my life is devoted to medicine and doctors. Why you ask? I'm sick, but don't ask me what I have because I couldn't tell you if I wanted to. I've been dealing with this for several years now. It's a combination of fatigue, muscle pain, headaches, stomach pains, etc. The list goes on and on and well you get the idea. So while I have all the major symptoms and signs of a auto-immune disease there are so many that it makes for a hard diagnoses. Not to mention that most auto-immune diseases are incurable. Some times I feel like I'm crazy. Does anyone know how I feel?
Please if there's anyone out there it would be nice to have some comments and not just be writing to an empty screen.
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